Ann,
I’m not sure what week I’m in for my Advent fasting, but as predicted the honeymoon is over.
I’m not sad at all about giving up Facebook in particular. But giving up one layer of my “vices” has only exposed others. They were really just escapes, and now I notice so many more: eating, daydreaming, talking on the phone, just to name a few. All of them take me to another place mentally, and yet I want to be here 100% for my family!
I’ve also noticed other things in my life that can play games with my head, making me feel like my life is not as interesting as others’. Our beloved Real Simple that we read form front to back? Yeah, pretty much makes me think like my life is crap. Parenting websites and magazines? I suck. It’s making me realize that, although some things are totally worth avoiding, at some point I just need to adjust my perspective so I can experience these things again and yet not get sucked into that low place. I know it’s do-able, it’s just going to take a level of consciousness I don’t usually operate from.
On a positive note, I am still noticing joy in places I used to overlook, and trying to notice the fairytale under my nose, but it is certainly a choice I have to make every singe day.
Focusing on gratitude.
Jen
Dear Jen,
This brings joy to me that you are seeing things more clearly. You are an amazing mom and have great kids! I like to think of Parenting and Real Simple as pretty things that have been photoshopped. Our homes will never be as organized as Real Simple because not everything fits in a perfect hole and doing a craft with the kids will be much messier than they describe in Parenting.
Ann
I’m not sure what week I’m in for my Advent fasting, but as predicted the honeymoon is over.
I’m not sad at all about giving up Facebook in particular. But giving up one layer of my “vices” has only exposed others. They were really just escapes, and now I notice so many more: eating, daydreaming, talking on the phone, just to name a few. All of them take me to another place mentally, and yet I want to be here 100% for my family!
I’ve also noticed other things in my life that can play games with my head, making me feel like my life is not as interesting as others’. Our beloved Real Simple that we read form front to back? Yeah, pretty much makes me think like my life is crap. Parenting websites and magazines? I suck. It’s making me realize that, although some things are totally worth avoiding, at some point I just need to adjust my perspective so I can experience these things again and yet not get sucked into that low place. I know it’s do-able, it’s just going to take a level of consciousness I don’t usually operate from.
On a positive note, I am still noticing joy in places I used to overlook, and trying to notice the fairytale under my nose, but it is certainly a choice I have to make every singe day.
Focusing on gratitude.
Jen
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This brings joy to me that you are seeing things more clearly. You are an amazing mom and have great kids! I like to think of Parenting and Real Simple as pretty things that have been photoshopped. Our homes will never be as organized as Real Simple because not everything fits in a perfect hole and doing a craft with the kids will be much messier than they describe in Parenting.
Ann
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